Klarion The Witch Boy (Clarence Blakely) (
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[phone call, to Yotsuyu Naeuri on October 30 at 9:56am]
[At first, all that can be heard is rushing water and breathing. Harsh breathing. Honestly, not the best start for any conversation but Clarence has been trying to get ahold of his emotions for the past hour and it's all just started to crumble to hell anyway, so this is the best he could hope for until he can talk to someone about this. When he finally speaks, he can be heard over the water, but just barely.]
Yot-tsuyu? I'm... I need some... advice. I'm sorry! I'm, you're working but... please.
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Clarence?? It's all right, what is going on? [It wouldn't be the first time there's been a panicked phone call in her life, it likely won't be the last. It's just not her child, precisely...]
Just breathe, dear, I'm listening. [Besides, her boss was rather pleased with one of the deals she'd landed, she's got some wiggle room, and Yotsuyu's damn well going to use it.]
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Listen. So I... yesterday was my birthday. So I'm... eighteen now. And so Phil and K-kris wanted to have a talk.
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They did not say about what, I suppose? I should hope it is only about a birthday celebration over the weekend!
If it is not, by some stretch of the imagination, you know you may stay with me? [Yotsuyu hopes that his fear is wrong, but she cannot help but offer a safety net. He and Elliot are friends, and she cares about him, too. Though she'd likely have Words with his foster parents if his fears are realized.]
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No, don't... don't think bad. It's not, I mean...
[He sobs again but then takes a deep breath... a really deep breath that comes out as a shudder but he's fine. He's fine. Or he will be.]
So, now I'm an adult and all that. [He huffs then coughs again.]
[And then he seemed to catch hold of himself, because his next sentence came out strangely solid.]
... Did you know people can be adopted as adults?
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Is that a potential option on the table? [Yotsuyu is a bit fond of Kris and Phil, and she surely does hope that they do adopt Clarence. She's more fond of him, it's true. If it wouldn't be weird, she'd consider adopting him herself, were he fond of the idea.]
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[His breathing starts to pick up like he’s going to cry again.]
I just... I don’t... know...
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I hardly think they've been terrible to you. But this way, it would certainly be your decision. Even I am not trying to sway you, just giving you a way to...focus? It is a big decision, I can understand your distress.
[At least here, she can have a clear head about it!]
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[He takes another deep breath and exhales, haggard.]
[And then his voice gets real small.]
... What if I kill them?
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Whyever would you?
[Not that she sounds particularly horrified. Even if she thinks this is more a thought exercise, not a legitimate question, at the moment.]
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[He’s also strangely quiet now, like he ran out of tears. Or maybe he’s gotten beyond the crying and is now in the silent shock of it all.]
Th things I see in my memories, the weird Different ones, they don’t show me as a good person. I attack people all the time, I hurt them and laugh. And I’ve definitely killed someone before.
[His voice has gone almost monotone, like he’s zoning out.]
My existence is a curse.
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Well. Then I shall assume that is why we are friends. Because whoever my other self, my Different self, is...she is not a nice person.
Nor could I tell you whether or not my niceness here, in this time and place is a desire to be...Different, from her. [By the tone of her voice, Yotsuyu doesn't intend it to be a pun] Or if my nature simply changed due to nurture. But we are not the same as our others. Just because that is what you see, does not mean that it needs to be. I pray I am making sense.
But I do realize the temptation may be there. [To be evil. She has Elliot to be a role model for, at least...]
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Evil people attract one another, huh? Sorry, but I can't see you being a bad person.
[He pauses to think.]
I think... your words make sense. I don't like to think I'm just destined to stay stuck in some way, no matter how my life works out. That makes effort doing anything feel useless. And if that's the case, why care about art. Or friends. Or anything.
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Precisely. Or, even if that is what your other self's memories have showed you? You do not need to consider yourself trapped there. You are still you.
[Though she gives a light chuckle there, as well.] I've no need to be cruel or bad, if the ones I care for are all happy, now, do I?
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... But what if you wanted to be bad because the ones you loved were hurt by someone? What if you wanted to make them pay? Would you do it?
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I would. In a heartbeat, and without remorse. And if I could find a way to do it without being caught? So much the better. But I do not think I'd care if I were caught. If I could draw it out and heighten their pain? It would only please me more.
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So... if I could do it... you’re saying I should?
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What is this tangent about, Clarence? Perhaps this is something best dealt with in person.
[Only part of her might be concerned about who might be listening in to this...]
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Um... Maybe, yeah.
... Yeah.
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You may pick, and I shall pay.
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